Husbands Depression Finally Over But I Feel Upset
Writing by Bree on Monday, 23 of July , 2007 at 10:53 am
Isn’t that the incredible thing my husband finally is getting over his depression but I feel angry hurt and just plain ANGRY. I suppose while he was going through the depression I was the one coping with the day to day running of everything and the totally fallout that depression brings.
My husband got depressed on our honeymoon. And if I look back I should have seen that he wasn’t sleeping but I thought that it would fix it self and it didn’t and we were on the rollacooster for over 5 years after that. I wish someone had said something about sleep. I am so angry at myself for letting my husband down. For not making him happy.
My hsuband I know loves me but I do doubt him wanting to be with me. Since he has come out the depression he has been more loving more kind but I get this overwhelming feeling that I have caused this. Why do I feel this way it is not my fault how could I have known this when even the trained professionals didn’t?
I am starting to get my joy back but I am also starting to realise how much of blessing his depression was. We have never been more real or solidly based in our lives. We dont believe alot of the pie in the sky ideals and we know how bad life can get. I do mourn at times my loss of fun and fansiful thinking but I am happy and content.
It is hard for me to understand why he has got better and why sleep was so important. I hope that I can help any other woman that is going through the devastion of having a depressed husband as it is the hardest and deepest pain you will ever I think experience outside of a death.
God bless
Category: Depression
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