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For the last couple of days my husband has been going through the depressive state yet again. But I am taking it one day at a time. I was upset yesterday when he started to yell at me and be narky for no reason, but I was doing really well I just kept reminding myself that he was dealing with his issues and couldn’t really help it.

Well I am sorry to say that last night he was really mean and cruel and I let him have it I only yelled for a couple of seconds but I still felt guilt as I should have been able to deal with his depression in a more positive manner. But I know God forgave me and that my husband was actually apologetic  as he knew he had pushed me but I was so disappointed in myself.

At least we are getting closer to finding out why my husband has this depression and that is such a great thing. God truly is healing and revealing as he said he would.

My husband is comming out of the daze that he was in and that is good at least I am seeing more light than bad at the moment.

God bless

Isn’t that the incredible thing my husband finally is getting over his depression but I feel angry hurt and just plain ANGRY. I suppose while he was going through the depression I was the one coping with the day to day running of everything and the totally fallout that depression brings.

My husband got depressed on our honeymoon. And if I look back I should have seen that he wasn’t sleeping but I thought that it would fix it self and it didn’t and we were on the rollacooster for over 5 years after that. I wish someone had said something about sleep. I am so angry at myself for letting my husband down. For not making him happy.

My hsuband I know loves me but I do doubt him wanting to be with me. Since he has come out the depression he has been more loving more kind but I get this overwhelming feeling that I have caused this. Why do I feel this way it is not my fault how could I have known this when even the trained professionals didn’t?

I am starting to get my joy back but I am also starting to realise how much of blessing his depression was. We have never been more real or solidly based in our lives. We dont believe alot of the pie in the sky ideals and we know how bad life can get. I do mourn at times my loss of fun and fansiful thinking but I am happy and content.

It is hard for me to understand why he has got better and why sleep was so important. I hope that I can help any other woman that is going through the devastion of having a depressed husband as it is the hardest and deepest pain you will ever I think experience outside of a death.

God bless

My husband has suffered from depression for over 5 years now. We have tried all the remedies finally in the last 15 months we have gone to the doctors got antidepressants therapy and everything else that you can think of.

Well about 1 month ago I finally convinced my husband that taking a sleeping pill may help with the insomnia that he has been feeling. Reluctantly he tried one and the results from the first night were amazing. He slept like a baby for the first time in 5 years. But unfortunatly the next night the pills wouldn’t work and the following and so on.

Our doctor had about 8 months ago given my husband a sample of Stilnox so he gave that a whirl. The results were astounding. He slept like a baby and it worked heaps better than the other pill. I was amazed as the depressed guy that I had put up with for 5 years was now normal and is starting to get more and more normal. He was happy had inspiration was starting to want to be a father and husband.

The presciption does cost a bit but I say it is worth every penny. Unfortunatly it isn’t covered under PPS. But I am willing to pay whatever it costs.

I cant believe that lack of sleep has caused this incredible depressed state to come upon my husband. There are a lot of issues from his past that have contributed to my husbands depressed state but now that he is sleeping he is a totally differant man. He is the man that I fell in love with.