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I really feel low today I haven’t had any sleep for over 3.5 weeks and I feel somewhat like a mental person. I lost it this morning I threw burnt incense ashes all over Jasons keyboard like a two year old that couldn’t get there own way. Honestly it is so imature, I felt so bad he had to actually pull it apart. Thank God it is working now.

Also last night I took my 3 year old to the doctor for an infected toe. Man I felt like a low parent, when they looked at her toe it was really badly infected it felt hot and was red and purple. I mean the thing was throbbing so hard it felt like a heart. NOT GOOD. I was putting stuff on it but it wasn’t working. When he asked how long ago she had hurt it I said a week but it was only red like that for a day or two. He looked at me like I was nuts and gave her a strong antibiotic for it. I hope it is all fixed up now.

I am feel so overwhelmed by life right now. I know that my life is improving but I am finding it so hard at times to feel content about things. I hope that soon I will get some sleep.

Next week is getting busier and the more I look at all the things on the calendar the more stressed I am feeling. I need to learn not to let everything get on top of me.

The other day I was reading this article on this woman that had a lot of kids.  The more she was writing about the struggles of being a mum the more I was feeling like, Yeah that is me that is what I am feeling.  I really respected this woman and what she was doing and was thinking in my mind she must be such a patient great woman, but the more I read the more I realised that she had learnt patience and a lot of things from God.

Her article was basically talking about worshiping God in the good and the stressful times. I am going to keep trying to do that, although it is hard to feel like worshiping when everything is happening at once.

My sister is going through a separation at the moment and it is hard on my mum and dad having to take care of my nieces in the middle.  I am praying that God will make things better and will give my mum and dad the strength to get through everything peacefully. If you have a moment please pray for my mum and dad and the rest of my family.

While I was praying to God today to help me. I felt really encouraged about life and everything that was going on. Also I found this song that really helped me to realize it is grace not works that God operates in.

Well I had better go and make dinner.  No rest for the blessed.lol

This was sung at our wedding. I still remember feeling the peace of God. I want to go back there and feel that amazing loving feeling I once had that was all so encompassing for my husband. I want that new naive love feeling back. I am praying for that right now.