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For the last couple of days my husband has been going through the depressive state yet again. But I am taking it one day at a time. I was upset yesterday when he started to yell at me and be narky for no reason, but I was doing really well I just kept reminding myself that he was dealing with his issues and couldn’t really help it.

Well I am sorry to say that last night he was really mean and cruel and I let him have it I only yelled for a couple of seconds but I still felt guilt as I should have been able to deal with his depression in a more positive manner. But I know God forgave me and that my husband was actually apologetic  as he knew he had pushed me but I was so disappointed in myself.

At least we are getting closer to finding out why my husband has this depression and that is such a great thing. God truly is healing and revealing as he said he would.

My husband is comming out of the daze that he was in and that is good at least I am seeing more light than bad at the moment.

God bless

Well I am officially into the last 9 weeks of pregnancy and I can honestly say I am a nesting beast. I have pulled the house apart. I will be finished by Saturday with the garden and all and I am excited to sit back and admire my house. Really the nesting bug has hit and I am on a mission. My husband is kind of stepping back going OK hon doing a great job, while he sits and watches.

It is fun though to go through stuff and see what you have. I am getting rid of heaps of stuff and that is such a great feeling. I love giving stuff away. It is amazing but I would have felt upset about giving stuff away a couple of years ago as we had very little but it is amazing since God told us to sell all our possessions 1.5 years ago and move to where we are I have the freedom to know that God will provide.

I am feeling tired but I am not having any contractions with all the moving stuff around which is really good. I would say that I may have my baby in the next 6 weeks or so but I am going to leave it up to God when that happens.

My mum is coming for a visit in the next couple of weeks and it will be great to see her. Jason and I are going to have some romantic times together seeing a movie dinner all those things that you really cant do with the kids before the baby is born.

Next week I have a mums night with the woman from the mums and bubs group. It will be great to let our hair down and laugh. The kids will be at home and we will be eating at a nice restaurant. They are talking about seeing a movie but I don’t think I will stay on for that as I get tired quick these days and I don’t want to risk the drive home really tired. But I will see how I feel on the night.

Ahwell better go and nest some more.

God bless